this helpless feeling
like my limbs are felled trees
rotting into the ground
crumbling with moisture and moss
roots that creep into the sinews of my muscles
and break me up from the inside out
.
this hapless feeling
like my torso has been deboned
sliced oh-so-carefully down my backbone
cracked at the base of my neck
and pulled upward, 
slick bloody bone sliding outward
ribs snapping as my organs are released with a soft plop
leaving me a spineless lump
.
this shiftless feeling
like an elephant resting his foot on my chest
oh-so-gently, nonchalantly, casually placing it there
where a paradigm shift can crush me
there, where my heart beats feebly
begging for more life
and I wait for the final blow
but it never comes.